Thank you very much for your perspective. My heart breaks each time. . I am so glad that this letter can serve as a tool for sharing your journey with family and friends, and that you are able to find some help through my blog. This time tho I just dont know if I can walk in all the pain any longer. This is the hardest thing of all for me to overcome. She blames our divorce completely on me, taking no responsibility at all. I'm in a therapeutic community in the UK which is really helping, it's 3 days a week. It helped with a lot of other symptoms. I have done everything that I know to do for the past 28 years. Love, Andrea, You are so welcome, Heather. I figured it out, but only through trial, error, therapy, a good online support group and a lot of introspection and self-care on my part. UPDATE: A video version of this letter, complete with narration and text, is now available for viewing and sharing by clicking HERE. Also, I was a VERY positive person just a few years agoI was even called a Pollyanna! Thankyou, once again, for putting your heart and soul open for us to share.xx. , Hi Tea You're welcome, and thank you as always for the kind feedback. What is a BPD such as she expecting from me? I just wish more people were aware of how damaging the things they say really are to anyone with any kind of mental illness. If you've ever read anything about BPD, you've probably heard of people who are "abusive . This situation has been devastating because we were planning to get married and I wanted nothing more than that but her unwillingness to even realize that there could be something and act is what made me left, also because I was already showing signs of burn out such as anxiety, insomnia and depression that led me to my own therapy. I held on to you so tightly then, and I still do now because, to me, you are the answer, you are the only person in the world. Thank you for reading this. Caring about someone with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) tosses you on a roller coaster ride from being loved and lauded to abandoned and bashed. You might feel like you're being held hostage . You are free to opt out any time or opt in for other cookies to get a better experience. You remember in high school those kids who went from liking rock music to pop to goth, all to fit in with a group dressing like them, styling their hair like them, using the same mannerisms? We may request cookies to be set on your device. I am a woman with BPD. It is possible that something that you said or did triggered us. I wish she would recognise her need to make changes with help. Debbie,I just LOVE LOVE LOVE your honesty and compassion. ~ Dave M. Also, during those long recovery periods, she will fixate on a distorted, misremembered and misquoted version of something I'd said during the fight, always distorted to be much harsher than what I actually said, and sometimes completely "fabricated" with no basis in anything I said. I've been blamed by doctors who put me on these meds that I'm on too manyand the last one (after I discussed BPD he's a complete idiot and asked *me* what the therapy "DBT" was called) said to me, "You have a serious personality problem", in response to me answering how I'd been doing. Linda, thank you for taking the time to share these thoughts, as they will no doubt help others who read this post and scroll down to see your comment. I do love him and I am asking the Lord to help me help him. You know what it's like, in a way that no therapist does, to live with BPD day in and day out. Top Picks for BPD (and other) Books [Facebook Live Stream], Recent Facebook Live: Importance of Self-Care and Emotional Sensitivity (BPD), Fear of Real or Imagined Abandonment & BPD, Facts, Assumptions, and Missing Pieces in Seth Meyers, Psy.D.s Price of Loving SomeoneBorderline, The Sadness Spiral (BPD and Afraid to Feel), Trauma Triggers: Tips for Handling Visits From Estranged Family Members (BPD), 3 Ways To Handle Feelings Of Abandonment When A Loved One Travels, Real life vs. Social Media: Who are you really? Princess Diana: The disorder is also prevalent in royal families, and the most charismatic and famous celebrity suffering from it was Princess Diana. Thank you so much for your comment. I am a non that just recently gave up after 4 years of chaos. I was in denial until 27 years old. I am actually building up an identity, something that is ME. Tonight tho as she is in the psych ward I feel as tho my world is crashing down around me. Note that blocking some types of cookies may impact your experience on our websites and the services we are able to offer. Hugs! This was very well thought out and appreciated. Thank you so much for your openess, dedication and help. Any therapist helping a child of a borderline to recover will recommend that they protect themselves from the abuse and their abuser. Dr. Marsha Linehan, founder of DBT, likens us to 3rd degree emotional burn victims. She is educated and successful, and to all the other people in her life, except for close family, she seems confident and put together. I have the unique ability to "throw people off" my scent when they get close to calling me out on stuffThe only reason why I am here is because my oldest told me tonight that he knows that I am "unwell" and expressed himself honestly about those characteristics in my behavior that are destroying him emotionally to be fair, I am dealing with a lot of unnormal stuff, but am really unclear as to where it all ends and I begin I really have no idea, and I am miserable. I open my doors. BPD symptoms can include complex and unhealthy thought processes, anxiety, poor self-image, and dramatic mood swings. Debbie, Thank you so much for commenting. I keep reading things about how we cant love and that people should stay well clear of us, thankyou for writing this, my ex split with me, a week ago nd ive signed over my house coz she has nowhere to go, she jus thinks im trying to get back with her and has been told to cut all ties coz I will make her life hell, just feel so alone. I started to believe that. My mother has to pretty much do the same thing. She read some of your other posts and she said she could see a lot of similarities between us. Initially I thought we just fell out of love and she was unable to deal with that reality (like maybe she needed a larger reason like alcoholism or abuse rather than just drifting apart). Be anywhere but obsolete, which is what I would be if I wasn't a people pleaser. On the resources page of. It's a long road we all will travel. Even our perception that abandonment is imminent can cause us to become frantic. I wish you strength and hope as you do this work, and please always remember to also take care of YOU. Thank you for taking the time to leave this kind comment, and more importantly, for the wonderful work you are doing to help hurting people. All other programs and services are trademarks of their respective owners. I want to know that honesty and loyalty exist. I had promised not to disturb her, but a few minutes later I realized I'd left the book I was reading in the bedroom, so I lightly tapped on the door. Thank you so much for this letter. I tried to be responsible. I really appreciate all of the kind, encouraging words you've offered here. This is the most dreaded Dx to come across according to my colleaguesif it was so bad, why would it be my problem? I love this person, but the situation can be so hurtful. , I'm a 39 yr old wife and mother of a beautiful babygirl of 19 months. Now I don't know what I am. After nearly a year of working in a pub as a cleaner and bar staff, I finally got a . Reacting to someone with borderline personality disorder is a challenge. Encourage self-care. It can easily end up feeling hopeless and you feel helpless. In the interest of our child, I have put him into therapy. Impulsive, risky behaviour. I walked away so she wouldnt have to deal with that; because no one should have to. It makes a difference for us!! People with BPD traits often have "object permanence" issues - "out of sight is out of mind". Copyright 2023 NAMI. One of the symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder is an intense fear of being abandoned, and we therefore (often unconsciously) sometimes behave in extreme, frantic ways to avoid this from happening. My wife tried to take her life 16 days ago. I wish I knew if there was some real possibility to salvage our relationship or even that we will talk again. We may take on the attributes of those around us, never really knowing who WE are. Dating someone with borderline personality disorder (BPD) can be difficult at times, but it doesn't have to be something that harms your relationship. There are ups and downs for everyone, mentally healthy or not. It's nice to hear this from a BPD perspective. Borderlines do not know how to cope with intimacy - it leaves them feeling engulfed. I wish to God it would stop. ive been through the same, she knows she has it but cant have anyone know, she cant have people think shes not perfect and happy. Can't take their word for anything. -JB. Thank you for your heartfelt comment in response to my letter. An open letter from those with BPD Jul 15, 2019 An Open Letter to People who do Not have Borderline Personality Disorder from Those of Us who Do Click here to watch the Video Transcript: Dear Friends, Family Members, Lovers, Ex-lovers, Coworkers, Children, and others of those of us with Borderline Personality Disorder, If only we all got it laid out like this. In my experience, one of the most effective ways of doing this is to find someone who as gone through the DBT treatment to share some of their experiences with potential or new clients. All in all today I am successfull in all that I set my mind on to do. Then I was abandoned againwe all know about that. Spot on insight!! I want there to be love in the world. While she was packing one day I played some Mavericks, southwestern country music I thought she would enjoy because that's where she is from. An Open Letter From Myself, With BPD, To My Loved Ones. It will be a long road, but she will need the support of her family. My perception as a child was that I was, in fact, the cause of her turmoil. I pray every night for God to help meI would love some direction and support Thank You. This is known as PTSD, and it happens to a lot of us, too.). My family "tolerates" me. Debbie, Hi Kat thank you so much for sharing. I can't believe they still employ me (which reminds me I'm am Thee master of self-sabatoge)Every day I am paranoid, anxious, overwhelmed. You *can* overcome this disorder! As you note, they benefit from the mystery around BPD bc they can more easily confuse people, induce sympathy and get people to excuse their abuse etc. It is inspiring and a ray of light to those of us who have a loved one with BPD to remind us that is just an aspect that can be overcommed to let us live in full the beauty of life. Borderline Personality Disorder: Is there hope? Should I also even bother being a counselor if I am like this? You have to find the tools that work for you personally. The intimacy that non-personality-disordered people enjoy is stressful . This is an example of how manipulative people with BPD can be. When I was scared, I ran away and hid. I am also a Type 1 Diabetic of 17 years. One must only have 5 symptoms out of 9 to qualify for a diagnosis, and the combinations of those 5-9 are seemingly endless. I have emotionally detached myself quite well this time I think. One must only have 5 symptoms out of 9 to qualify for a diagnosis, and the combinations of those 5-9 are seemingly endless. Don't think we will ever get back now, gotta give it to her though, she was the only one who understood me. You are a strong person for working so hard to heal yourself. I loved this!!! Self-harm, threatening or attempting suicide. I am scared, and I am alone. I buried and oppressed all my feelings and emotions inside because I was afraid of ruining the one thing I had that made me feel slightly better, our family you and the children. I accept the consequences of my actions and how they have affected you, I didnt realize then how much it affected me too. Improve the Moment (and Your Life) with DBT, Interpersonal Effectiveness: DBT Skills at Work. I hope your husband is able to open his heart and read the letter. I scream out (or maybe I don't) and no one knows what the heck I'm talking about. Until I got out of all the physc stuff , non groups and started to directly talk or better said listen to those that suffer from BPD I really had no idea. this doesn't work for everyone, at all. This is called splitting, and its part of the disorder. This extreme, black or white thinking and experience of totally opposite desires is known as a dialectic. It takes even more work when there This insidious illness is as we know is the relationship killer. While you can attempt to be sensitive with the things you say and do, thats not always possible, and its not always clear why something sets off a trigger. This is an open letter to anyone willing and/or needing to listen. Everyday I sit with teenage girls in crisis, and oftentimes I think they struggling to find the words you expressed so eloquently in your letter. Also, I am very grateful FOR my boyfriend and your article. , Rainbow, I am so pleased and happy that this letter will be helpful to you. Why? I am borderline, but also bipolar, which I take medication for. The right kind of help. It's hard not to appear defensive when she is asking for explanations as to why I've done things. I work from home. I am sorry you had to grow up too soon. However, it's my belief that the letter does little to help the children of borderlines. I am so glad that you believe it will be helpful. I will try and find your blog, Lots of love Kat. Today I turned 47 and I feel like I am 77. My kneejerk concern about the situation sometimes is rejection, but I try to put the feelings she is going through in perspective and just wait. He told me about the diagnosis of PD but we never discussed it. Thank you for being who you are. she now cant be with me because what will people think if we are seen together? There is a FUTURE, just DONT GIVE UP, be STRONG, get HELP. There, youll also find thoughts and questions by our community. It can be really difficult to know how to cope when someone has emotion dysregulation issues and is incredibly emotionally sensitive. i love your article and i wish that i was that far ahead; we are given just one year of dbt then we get on with it alone; there may be a graduate group but it will only be every month or two for a few hours and no therapy; my dbt ended about a month ago and far from moving on i am regressing and i feel that i have never done it at all; i would so like to be able to see things as you do but it looks very unlikely that i ever will; i would say give thanks every day for what you have been given and spare a thought and maybe a prayer for those of us who are still in the pits and stuggling; one year is just not enough to make the skills part of ones life. Terms. Someone with BPD might feel fine one second and then really angry or upset the next. A normal life can be had. I would be a misserable person with no goals. Life can be hard for all of us at times, and if you are struggling with the problems that face people with BPD then it can get really tough. I want to point out that you have a lot of clarity and insight into what's been happening for you and your desired boundaries around your family. They may do this without regard for others or possible consequences. I am LOST! It can be hard to witness someone's pain, and one of the pitfalls for therapists is to lose faith in the person going through the therapy, particularly when building up one's own DBT skills. We provide you with a list of stored cookies on your computer in our domain so you can check what we stored. Its hard, and my life sucks.. My blog is aggis.wordpress.com, but its in norwgian, lol. It is possible that something that you said or did triggered us. Thank you for sharing especially during your own struggles. Celebrities and Famous People With Borderline Personality Disorder. Changes will take effect once you reload the page. my life is in shamblesi without her, im just ad much a mess worrying about her, who shes with today tomorrow.. I have read through a lot of your blog and so much of it sounds like me. Thanks for giving others hope by being a partner who is interested in learning more about his girlfriend's condition, and please also be sure to use very good self-care and seek support for YOU, too. wow. We all receive different care and information from professionals and those around us, information has never been so easily accessible. UPDATE: A video version of this letter, com, plete with narration and text, is now available for viewing and sharing by clicking, https://www.my-borderline-personality-disorder.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/12/healing-from-bpd-e1577900769964.jpg, An Open Letter From Those of Us With Borderline Personality Disorder. She attends a DBT Centre twice a week. I love you, baby. I am sorry you were scared. I am sorry for blaming you. There is nothing you can do to fix it. over the years I couldn't figure out why I did the thjngs I did and people dealing with my behaviors would always resort to calling me crazy. The best thing we can do during these times is remind ourselves that this too shall pass and practice DBT skills especially self-soothing things that helps us to feel a little better despite the numbness. First of all I want to commend you on your progress and all the hard work that I am sure you have gone through to get to where you are now, especially having the courage to write this letter. While this is the basic description for BPD, the complexity of this disorder is extreme. A common call to the SANE Helpline often goes like this: 'I think my partner, daughter or son has borderline personality disorder (BPD) and I feel like I have to walk on eggshells around them. Tell us how mental illness has affected your life. It's bloody hard work to change your whole life and how you live it. Hope can be returned. He says that the money we spent on therapy and meds has done nothing to help; he doesn't think it's worth it. After finally being diagnosed with BPD after hospital stays, hurting multiple people, trying med after med and more. I have found some wonderful resources but they are all for the person affected by the BDP subhuman (heh). People with BPD can experience severe mood swings,. Keep up all the good work here! For me as I gained more experience and I saw the positive changes DBT can lead to, this helped me to avoid that particular trap. You can check these in your browser security settings. It is intense, exhausting, and rewarding! Dear Friends, Family Members, Lovers, Ex-lovers, Coworkers, Children, and others of those of us with Borderline Personality Disorder. If you do not want that we track your visit to our site you can disable tracking in your browser here: We also use different external services like Google Webfonts, Google Maps, and external Video providers. I have struggled with relationships. Open Letter from those with Borderline Personality Disorder (With Narration and Text) Healing From BPD 16.3K subscribers 529K views 10 years ago Click here to read the full letter in. The Perks of Being a Borderline Resilient, Got BPD? So for the next two months she drove an hour each way to attend IOP. No one from the hospital has ever contacted me about her condition or treatment plan, I have been left totally in the dark and out of her recovery. September 14, 2018, 3:53 PM. The disregard/disbelief. I don't harm my self, don't act on impulse, don't fear abandonment I am no longer scared or afraid to live and love. Click to enable/disable Google Analytics tracking. I know it might seem I am heartless, but I have to put my own husband and my 5 children first. It's common to experience other mental health problems and experiences alongside BPD, which could include: Anxiety and panic attacks Depression Eating problems Dissociative disorders Psychosis or hearing voices Bipolar disorder Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) or complex PTSD Sleep problems I want to know that humanity can be beautiful. We were married for 12 years and the relationship was defined by me reassuring her that she was good enough, while she would constantly go through massive unpredictable mood swings. One must only have 5 symptoms out of 9 to qualify for a diagnosis, and the combinations of those 5-9 are seemingly endless. I was so considerate and walked over again and again. Again this is NOT your fault. Signs and symptoms of borderline personality disorder. And for all those who DO deserve to be helped, be allowed to heal, and their loved ones who deserve to be supported, thank you for sharing this letter that might help them all live better together and individually. Not all of the situations I described apply to all people with Borderline Personality Disorder. All Rights Reserved. 1. I quit writing. I would be very pleased to share it with you. Sometimes we take a preemptive strike by disowning people before they can reject or abandon us. After experiencing a lack of support at work, Beth became a champion for workplace mental health. I need frequent reminders of this, because if I dont it feels like I will lose faith in humanity completely, and that will shatter every belief I have ever held dear. ~ Dave M. This comment has been removed by the author. You don't understand me. My significant other felt the same way as yours that therapy was a waste of time and money, until I finally showed progress and began getting better through DBT. This post is just to give you an idea of the typical suffering and thoughts those of us with BPD have. But right now, she would react in a completely negative way to even the suggestion that she needs help. Having BPD is no picnic, either. My belief in it is fading. In Borderline Personality Disorder, many of us experience identity disturbance issues. I have BPD and I'm currently in grad school to get a Master's in social work. Otherwise you will be prompted again when opening a new browser window or new a tab. We were always extremely close, until she got involved in a highly stressful abusive relationship. Australia. Doesnt Mean Everything is Your Fault (Gas Lighting, Adult Bullies, and Narcissism). No one is perfect and no one has life figured out, we are all troubled in some way. Email: bpdfamilyconnections@gmail.com. Reading also helps me manage my own destructive thoughts and feelings. please know that at the very same time that we are pushing you away with our words or behavior. I think all the time, but, what DO I DO?! To receive a diagnosis of BPD, five of these nine symptoms need to be present (1): Feeling empty, or having low self-esteem. I am about to give birth to my first child and one of my baby's grandparents most likely has Borderline Personality Disorder (previously diagnosed with Paranoid Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Depression, and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, but many of us believe BPD is a more comprehensive explanation and DBT type therapy/interactions are the only things that have consistently had a positive impact). I read your letter Debbie and most of the post. Showing your love and support will make them more willing to see your point of view and help them understand your desire for healthy boundaries. It can indeed be inspiring to read these stories. If you are serious about hurting yourself, I need to ask you to please get medical attention right away. I briefly contemplated not telling my story because of that very fact, but have decided to post it despite that fact. 4. I wish you so much healing and hope as you continue on your journey. My own experience with my BPD mother was one in which my father, siblings and I were often blamed for her erratic behavior and unstable feelings. I came across this link on tumblr while browsing and I felt compelled to respond from the perspective of the BPD's child. The roots of abuse in BPD, particularly in intimate significant other relationships with Non-Borderlines have their genesis in the borderline's re-living of this deep intra-psychic pain. It was only ever a matter of time and what scared me the most was the thought that youd find someone who would treat you better, who wasnt so weighed down. A trigger is something that sets off in our minds a past traumatic event or causes us to have distressing thoughts. They have a higher risk of suicide and self-destructive behavior. Thanks for writing this. This letter really hits hard. If I continue living how I am, I doubt I'll see the age my mother saw54. There are many different borderline personality disorder symptoms or traits including: feeling empty inside. Hi there, I am now in my 2nd month of treatment for BPD, and ,sadly, had all nine of the symptoms. I truly appreciate what you said. The intensity with which you felt those emotions is probably equivalent to what a person with BPD feels on a regular basis. My BPD finance left me VERY suddenly, moved out while I was away, blocked me from phone contact, email contact, unfriended me on FB and other social media, sucessfully compelled her family and friends to do the same and even had a lawyer friend threaten me with a restraining order for calling her from a hotel phone twice! That's fun too.) Or if you don't deserve that because there is nothing for them to "understand" because i have no real excuse for being this weak pathetic crazy annoying and hurtful person? Distancing can also trigger all kinds of abandonment and trust issues for the "BPD" partner (as described in #4). Open Letter To All With BPD A.J. Madeline Richardson. I am sorry you didn't have a choice. All of this is new to me, just as it is with so many others, and as much as I would love the help of regular therapy I know that I have to help myself - but it is HARD. Maybe we should bandage our heads and hearts. I am about to go to my brothers wedding and a ton of my family will be there. . BPD, Trauma, Outbursts, & Reality Checks: How much of this is actually real? , I agree with your insights and appreciate that you took the time to comment here. Dear people, I have a professional translation of the letter in Dutch. 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